Desert Diaries 3

Forget the rolling sand dunes, This desert is harsh, hilly scrub-land. It’s where Jesus went after his baptism by John.
Follow his footsteps and come to a place to be alone; a place to take stock of life; a place to be alone with yourself and get to know who you really are.
There’s nothing like spending time alone with someone in difficult circumstances for really getting to know each other. We may take it for granted that we already know ourselves, but whenever unusual and difficult events come into a conversation people tend to admit that they don’t actually know how they would react in such circumstances. If you were really hungry and knew you had the power to turn stones into bread would you succumb to the temptation to prove a point and fulfill your own need or desire? It’s a matter of using God’s gifts for selfish reasons instead of for love.
On other occasions, Jesus fed huge crowds. He turned water into wine. Although these events did act as signs of his power, they were done out of compassion for people in need.
The reason or motive behind an action can sometimes be as important as the action itself. Yet, at other times, what matters is to just get on and do what needs doing without a lot of introspective speculation on the whys and wherefores. Knowing which response is called for in any given situation is a matter of how well we know ourselves, how well we know God and how much we allow God to know us.
Of course, in the sense that God is all knowing and we are his creation, then he knows all about us anyway. But there is a big difference between this knowledge and the knowledge that we deliberately lay before him and invite him to share with us. When we open our inner selves to God in this way, we get to know him better and, because he knows us better than we know ourselves, we also get to know ourselves better as he shows us things that we hadn’t noticed about ourselves. Armed with this knowledge, we can start to become the person that God really wants us to be.
Lent is a good time to embark on such a journey of self-knowledge and deepening relationship with God. A time to consider the place that our faith occupies in our daily lives.
It often seems as though Lent falls into two parts. At the beginning comes the preparation for ministry and towards the end the preparation for Good Friday. The time in the desert and the time in Gethsemane. Facing life, facing death.
As we metaphorically follow Jesus up from the Jordan into the desert wilderness, there is nothing and no-one to come between us and God. Nowhere to hide. No excuses. Just our own self, open and exposed.
Consider setting aside ten or twenty minutes a day to place yourself alone with God in the desert. Picture the scene. Own the space. Look around. If you’re going to spend some time here, you’ll want somewhere to sit down. Perhaps a scrubby, stunted tree will provide some welcome shade, or the mouth of a cave. Or a flat rock might make a good seat. Wherever you find, this is your space. Your space to simply be before God, as unencumbered and naked before God’s gaze as the stones around your feet.
We often think of giving up something edible for Lent, but how about giving up some time instead  for prayer and meditation and see what it does for your relationship with God and with yourself.

Holy Spirit

The discussion was entitled, ‘The Holy Spirit’ but someone commented afterwards that we seemed to spend more time talking about prayer.

What a wonderful, insightful observation. For whether we experience God as transcendent creator, more intimately as Abba, Father or as Jesus our friend, is it not in fact the work of The Holy Spirit within us that makes any of these experiences possible?

And this awareness of God is the very essence of prayer.


snowdrop DSCN4474a

The first lone snowdrop
A pioneer
Usually they grow in clumps
Clusters, groups
Just as you place us, Lord
In groups, communities
To form your body here on earth.
It can be lonely
To be one
Ahead of the crowd.
Once used to solitude
It can be difficult
To fit back in.
Help us each, Lord, to connect to our neighbours
In the way that you desire
To form your perfect body
According to your will.


Someone needs a hug
Not my Mum or Dad
Or child
My own are often far away
I cannot always reach
Can only trust
That someone will be there for them
As I reach out to those around
That you, Lord, send for me to love
For all of us are one in you
It’s your same love we share.

Letting go

Dad and Robin 1

As parents, we have to stand watchfully aside
Whilst toddlers take their first faltering steps unaided.
Metaphorically we repeat this with each step towards mature adulthood.
At work, young employees we helped train get promoted above us.
In life we are given people to hold in our heart
For a while.
Lord, grant us grace to let go
When it is time for them to step out
Where we cannot accompany.